okay, more on this love thing....
it probably sounded like i was hinting something,
which i wasnt.
i was saying how i felt, and really... its not that im down on myself and think they would never love me, but its just i mean.... there are things, that make it impossible for them to love me back. unless they are like.... REALLY a good actor, and love me a WHOLE lot more than i can imagine.
but really... this is more for my future self, for if im wrong, about really... anything in the situation, i can look back at this and see that i was wrong.
gahhhhhhhhhhhh things are so confusing!