Monday, August 4, 2008

Swings

okay, so ive found my new love for swings.... not like... bench swings but like... the general park/playground swings...


yesterday i was at my friends house and we walked down to this park by lake murray and there was a small playground... just like... 2 seperate climby things and then a swing... and when everyone got off of the swings i got on one because well... i liked them so i started swinging and started getting higher and higher and then i was watching the sunset on the swings (as i was swinging) and like... examining the clouds while i was swinging, and then i looked up when i was swinging and it was like.... a really cool experience... because everytime i went forward and like... up... it would feel like if i let go that i would keep floating up and like... reach heaven.... i dont know... like... i felt like while i was on the swing i was going to heaven.... it was surreal....

i was suprised i could have such a happy giggly spiritual time on a swing! oh and i was like... laughing and smiling the whole time... i also asked God if "this" is was Love is like... and He said yes.... and really... im not dissapointed... i know love will be different than that, but for some reason like... what i was asking, im happy with the answer.


it was so peaceful! i was on the swing for like... a half hour!!!!!! i know! a long time! but it was so fun! i love swings now! and then afterwards i went on the grass and just layed down and looked at the clouds some more and i saw like... 4 faces! and hearts and stuff... it was really nice... like seriously... jesus moments...


and then we went back to my friend's house and stuff and then after i left her house i walked outside to get in the car and just looked up at the stars and my brother was pulling out so i could get in the car easier (he parked next to a bush) so i had more time to look up at the stars...


it was really nice...

and happy

and peaceful.


oh and FYI as soon as i saw my brother's face at the airport to pick up my brother, i instantly got happy... all of my troubles just like... vanished... or at least i wasnt dwelling on them.


im totally happy now... like... even though i miss the people that died, im not dwelling on "life without them" im more thinking of life....


its all good :]

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