Tuesday, September 2, 2008

Fix You

So, im gonna just post the lyrics, and then explain.

"When you try your best but you dont succeed,
When you get what you want, but not what you need.
When you feel so tired but you cant sleep,
Stuck in reverse.

And the tears come streamin down your face,
When you lose something you cant replace,
When you love someone but it goes to waste,
Could it be worse?

Lights will guide you home,
And ignite your bones,
and i will try to fix you

High up above or down below,
When your too in love to let it go,
But if you never try, you'll never know,
just what you want.

Lights will guide you home,
and ignite your bones,
and i will try to fix you.

Tears stream down your face
when you lose something you cannot replace
Tears stream down your face and i---

Tears stream down your face
I promise you i will learn from my mistakes
Tears stream down your face and i (or ah?)

Lights will guide you home,
and ignite your bones,
and i will try to fix you."


okay, so today i was home alone and i decided i would take advantage of that opportunity and play the piano (loudly i might add). and was trying to remember all the songs i used to play all the time when i was home alone. like sunburn by muse, and a few i would make up, and a Camel song, and a few classical songs. but i preferred ones that i could sing (belt out) to. so i started remembering Fix You. so i was playing it and realised how much it applied to me.... like... soooo much.

and tonight i was talking to my brother about the guy that i severely like... (that im pretty convinced im in love with,) and that song came on in the car (we were doing a late night ice cream run, im still eating the ice cream) and we were listening to it, and so im gonna just explain how it applies to me.

When you try your best but you dont succeed - im trying very hard not to like him. im trying very hard to act like im not hurting from this.

When you get what you want but not what you need - im getting things i want, im living a good life, but this is something that i just need to either stop liking him or something to move forward. i cant keep being in this idle state.

When you feel so tired but you cant sleep - ive been so freeking tired all day today, but i cant sleep cause my mind is goin crazy.

Stuck in reverse - i keep looking back to how i was before, and thinking that maybe if i had taken advantage of something then, i wouldnt be in this state now.

And the tears come streamin down your face - yup, ive cried. tonight was the first time i actually cried solely for this reason. usually my mind would come up with another reason why im crying so that i feel like its not effecting me so much.

When you lose something you cant replace - that one's just for jeff. (rip)

When you love someone but it goes to waste, Could it be worse? - that one kind of speaks for itself. it sucks. i hate it.

Lights will guide you home, and ignite your bones, and i will try to fix you. - tonight i was walking home from denny's with my friend and we were talking in sign language most of the time and we needed the light to talk and it was what would get us home. it was pretty dark.

High up above or down below, when your too in love to let it go - i cant get over him.

But if you never try youll never know just what you want - that ones just for my hope... i wish i could do something. but i cant.

and at the "Tears stream down your face" intense part, i started crying in the car. completely for the guy. ugh... i cant even believe im getting so hung up over someone.


sorry for my theme of pitiful blog posts

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