i havent blogged in a whiiiiiillllllleeeee.
but a little bit of me is happy about that because it means i dont have time to do it.
but i just thought i would post a little update on things.
okay, i know myself better than that to say that it will be a "little" update.
So, today is the last day of the summer of 2009 for me. well... this is moreso the last 47 minutes of the summer for me.
i feel like im growing up a bit more. like i can feel it.
i was looking back at old pictures of myself and i was just realising how different i am from this year than last year, and how much i grew and matured, and i feel like im becoming more of my own person, and having my own opinions and views on things no matter how many times things are hammered into my head that im supposed to just soak up, i still have my own opinions and want to search them out for myself.
these past 8 months i would describe as independance. because i got my own car, i graduated on my own and not just cause i survived 4 years of HS, but because i decided i wanted to graduate this year so... i did. hah. and also with my faith, i became more independant.... like.... literally. which sounds stupid to say literally to the word independant but i mean like... with my faith im not DEPENDING on anything or anyone. its completely mine. not my pastor's, not my worship leader's, not my friends', mine. i believe what I believe. and not what everyone wants me to believe. and through being independant on my faith, ive become independant on my morals too. (such as the modesty thing) i feel like from becoming independant ive opened my eyes a bit more to the way things REALLY are, and not just my sheltered way-i-want-things-to-be view.
Ive had a really amazing summer! its been.... full.
not just busy, but full.
a lot has happened, and im happy.
i dont want this to turn into some sappy movie ending "i laughed, i cried, it was an adventure" but honestly, my summer was great! it wasnt perfect but, in a way it was. hah.
Im excited for my first day officially as a college student.
Im excited to be taking vital, productive steps towards my future.
im liking who im becoming, and who i will be.
im liking that my steps forward arent just non-chalant, apathetic guesses, but confident, driven strides.
all i know is, im growing up, and im excited.